As my trip to Thailand fast approaches, it has been very difficult to gather my thoughts. Several people have asked me if I am excited... and I've said "Eh, not yet." Not because I am not actually excited, but I am not currently "feeling" excited. I think if you are a woman, you probably understand the frequency of emotions you feel not being reality :)
I have many things to set in order before I go. I still have many activities to attend & serve at, or be served to - including: speaking at a prayer summit, having a prayer time with our church's women's leadership, date night with Mark, date (and shopping) night with Kristi, meal preparation for while I am gone, having guests over for dinner, photo day with Dar, finishing organizing my babysitting help list, possible photo shoot for a wonderful family - yeah, it's a little crazy. But, one by one, things are getting knocked off the list.
I have almost everything I need. Well, I say that and am reminded that as long as I have Jesus, I have everything I need. It will be very humbling to try and tell desperately poor people that Jesus is all they need, when I often complain at home about not having what I need. But, in all honesty, I complain because things are not how I would prefer them, not because things don't work according to God's plan. So, on my trip, I will often be attempting to remind myself that I have Jesus and God's plan is being played out in my life, therefore, NO REASON TO FRET! I desperately want to trust Him more. And not just say that I trust, but feel that relaxed feeling of truly knowing He is in control for His good purposes to come about.
I was so blessed to hear the Word preached at our church this week. It was from Titus. God really encouraged me that I am on His path and to not let my desire to do more for Him get me discouraged, but to trust that it means I am following Him. I really felt humbled and blessed that He would encourage me in this way - it's a daily struggle for me to combat being drawn into the world and desiring earthly treasures. I just need to keep taking deep breaths and praying for His goodness to sink down into my heart.
I am excited to go. I'm nervous about the heat (I'm such a wimp, but I get so sweaty!!) even though it is really only going to be around 80 degrees and 80% humidity. :) Told you, wimp! I know that once I can see what it's like, it will be easier for me. I don't like to go into things without knowing what it will be like - this is the same reason why I generally despise buffets... too much unknown without instruction. But, this is not a buffet, and God knows everything and He will tell me what I need to know exactly when I need to know it.
You can pray that I can get everything lined up for my husband and children smoothly. I don't want to be a basket-case the week before I leave! Pray that the people in Thailand would see God clearly and see their need for Him. Pray that as people turn to Jesus, He would truly transform them and give them a desire to serve and grow in faith. I will have my cell phone with me, so I will try to post pictures and write about how the trip is going... no promises tho, you know me! Thanks for all your prayers so far - I'll be writing again soon!!
I have many things to set in order before I go. I still have many activities to attend & serve at, or be served to - including: speaking at a prayer summit, having a prayer time with our church's women's leadership, date night with Mark, date (and shopping) night with Kristi, meal preparation for while I am gone, having guests over for dinner, photo day with Dar, finishing organizing my babysitting help list, possible photo shoot for a wonderful family - yeah, it's a little crazy. But, one by one, things are getting knocked off the list.
I have almost everything I need. Well, I say that and am reminded that as long as I have Jesus, I have everything I need. It will be very humbling to try and tell desperately poor people that Jesus is all they need, when I often complain at home about not having what I need. But, in all honesty, I complain because things are not how I would prefer them, not because things don't work according to God's plan. So, on my trip, I will often be attempting to remind myself that I have Jesus and God's plan is being played out in my life, therefore, NO REASON TO FRET! I desperately want to trust Him more. And not just say that I trust, but feel that relaxed feeling of truly knowing He is in control for His good purposes to come about.
I was so blessed to hear the Word preached at our church this week. It was from Titus. God really encouraged me that I am on His path and to not let my desire to do more for Him get me discouraged, but to trust that it means I am following Him. I really felt humbled and blessed that He would encourage me in this way - it's a daily struggle for me to combat being drawn into the world and desiring earthly treasures. I just need to keep taking deep breaths and praying for His goodness to sink down into my heart.
I am excited to go. I'm nervous about the heat (I'm such a wimp, but I get so sweaty!!) even though it is really only going to be around 80 degrees and 80% humidity. :) Told you, wimp! I know that once I can see what it's like, it will be easier for me. I don't like to go into things without knowing what it will be like - this is the same reason why I generally despise buffets... too much unknown without instruction. But, this is not a buffet, and God knows everything and He will tell me what I need to know exactly when I need to know it.
You can pray that I can get everything lined up for my husband and children smoothly. I don't want to be a basket-case the week before I leave! Pray that the people in Thailand would see God clearly and see their need for Him. Pray that as people turn to Jesus, He would truly transform them and give them a desire to serve and grow in faith. I will have my cell phone with me, so I will try to post pictures and write about how the trip is going... no promises tho, you know me! Thanks for all your prayers so far - I'll be writing again soon!!
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